Archive for July, 2012


Posted in Uncategorized on July 22, 2012 by briannadiehl

As most of you have already inferred, my Mom never made it home for Hospice care.  The GVHD progressed even more quickly once she was disconnected from her IV bags, in preparation of moving her home.  They kept her at the James in her last days, and our main focus was keeping her comfortable.  My Mom passed away on July 16, 2012, the day she was supposed to come home.

I say “supposed” to come home very lightly, because in my eyes, she did come home.  She went home to be with the Lord.  I am so proud to be Amy Diehl’s daughter.  She fought the ultimate fight, and in the end, she gained the ultimate prize.  I could write pages, and pages, on why my Mom was such an awesome person, and I could list an infinite amount of reasons why I will miss her.

It’s comforting to know that we were prepared for my Mom’s passing in the best way that we could be.  Most people don’t get the chance to say goodbye to their loved ones, but we were given that, and I am so grateful.  It’s hard to process that at 19, I’ve lost my Mom, but whatever she was put on this earth to accomplish, she has done it, and God has rewarded her for that.

I think the hardest part is over though.  It was hard watching my Mom suffer in the hospital.  It was hard getting the news that she was terminal.  It was hard getting the call that she had passed away.  It was hard making arrangements for my Mothers funeral.  It was hard seeing my Mom in the casket I picked out, in the her final (stylish) outfit Timyka and I picked out for her.  It was hard going to Grandview to lay my Mom to rest.

But, now we can start moving on with our lives, and work on getting things back to normal, whatever normal is.  I’m not saying that it will be easy, because it won’t be.  There will be times when I miss her terribly, I know this.  I’ve never wanted to imagine what it would be like graduating college, getting married, and having kids, without my Mom being there to hold my hand.  BUT THAT”S OKAY, because I can only think that way for a second; I know that my Mom will be there in spirit, and I will always have my friends and family here to hold my hand in her place.  My Mom would not have it any other way.

Living life to the fullest has never meant so much to me.  I’ve been witness to two great women, who have fought for their lives, and have been taken from me at the young ages of 18 and 48.  I can safely say that neither of them would want me to sit around and mope on the couch blogging.  They would want me to live. Live every day like it’s my last.  It’s so cliché, but it’s never been more relevant.

So to all of you who have been following my Mom’s story, don’t be looking for another post soon, because I’ll be too busy living.  It’s what my Mom and Emilee were set out to show me, so I will honor that.  Hopefully the next post I write will be much more lighthearted than How to Diehl with a friend or a Mother’s passing.

Thank you to all of you who have helped me, and my family, along the way. You have all been a part of helping us “Diehl” during such a difficult time.  This would have been unbearable without you.  All you really need in life are friends and family, they will get you through, don’t let anyone tell you anything different!




Coming Home…

Posted in Uncategorized on July 14, 2012 by briannadiehl

My Mom’s doctors have tried very hard to get the Graft Versus Host Disease (GVHD) under control, but it is not reacting to any medications.  For those of you who don’t know what that is, it basically means that my Mom’s body is fighting the cord blood because it is not her DNA.  Unfortunately, we have run out of options and are bringing my Mom home.  We are in the process of arranging for a hospice to help us out and keep her comfortable.

This WILL be the hardest thing we’ve ever been through as a family, but we are a strong.  The most important thing for us to do right now, is to spend time with our Mom, and keep her out of pain.  We love her so much, and wish more than anything that for a different prognosis.   Right now, we have to learn to accept it, and focus on making the very best of our time with her.

I will let people know when she gets settled in and will continue to post if I feel up to it.  I ask that when she would like to have visitors, that it is limited to close friends and family, and that we are contacted and can prepare for visits.  We appreciate all the prayers, keep them coming, we all can benefit from them more than ever ❤